its 12am and i should be asleep. problem is, i can't sleep with all these things on my mind.
life is good now, since school is over and all. but still there are many things still bugging me.
it has almost been 1 year since our trip to Nepal, and it is almost time for my 2nd trip there. Its still 4 days and i haven't started packing haha.
I should be happy that i'm going back; back to the place where everything started; but deep down i'm scared; this time i'm in charge of the trip, i'm scared that i can't make it good enough, i'm scared i can't meet the expectations that people set. i'm scared of many things. i'm also scared that i can't find what i'm searching for with this trip.
over the course of the past year, i've changed a lot. i've became more mature, more fun, friendlier, and stuff. however this also means that i've became less focused, and less determined.
i miss those days.
i guess it all went wrong some time after Nepal. that's why i'm scared. i'm scared something will go wrong again.
why can't it go back to the peaceful days before the buffet breakfast before Nepal. When we thought all of us could be happy together.
then everything just had to fall apart.
for you, and for me, for us.
friendships fell apart. my dreams fell apart. you fell apart.
if i could see another shooting star now, i know what wish to make.
i wish that everything will be ok
