maybe

well, that was probably the craziest thing i've done this year.

1it probably took more courage for me to do this than anything else that i've done this year.
but, to you, i guess it something normal. something that people ask you to do everyday.

i'm feeling like an idiot now, but at least i'm relieved that i won't have to live regretting that i didn't ask you for this. well, i guess i'm feeling pretty messed up rn. happy yet confused at the same time.

despite this, i still see a sliver of hope. maybe its a conjuration of my hazy mind, but its driving me crazy.

sigh, what have i gotten myself into.